dreams.

梦想 这个词眼
好像越来越渺茫
实现了某一些
失去了某一些

实现了 就应该满足吗?
失去了 就应该追求吗?

有时思绪乱了
就分析不出什么答案


梦想
可以很宏伟
也可以很简单

我没有很宏伟的愿望
只希望一切都过得顺利
只留一些简单的  梦想
给自己

interest.

things get bored when it takes too long,
this theory can actually apply on everything,
except, interest.

you may be bored for study,
you may be bored for games,
you may be bored for working,
but you will never, ever, bored on the thing that you interested in.

my interest?
read, listen, deeply into what i like.
so, what's yours?

leaving.

although it has been a year, which almost everyone threw it,
but you however, get one for me.
Thank you.
I will miss you, through out the days,
when i couldn't see you in my life, anymore.

everyone has to leave, no matter friends or family.
no matter how much you love them,
still, they will leave..
i felt upset whenever i think of this,
but still, couldn't change the fact.

missing is the only word i can use,
how weak it is,
how hopeless it is.

if i couldn't pass this stage,
how i am going to face it,
when i am going to leave all my friends,
when i am....graduated?

there is something behind truth.

沉淀。

很努力

很平静

思考

对与错其实都有自知之明

该与不该其实都心知肚明

只是 要与不要

.....

只是...我不想要

a day before final

walao eh =D
a day before final wehhhh =DD
only happens thrice annually and i'm gonna study like no body business...
although it doesn't really looks so XD
anyhow, still, my sleeping time will got affected,
totally messed up with normal life cycle,
although mine is already mess enough. = ="
anyhow, just spending few days in a semester to study until climax,
until i cannot climb down,
for a B+ or above, its really worth. =) (if it really happens)

so...
continue my night.
aza aza fighting =)
(taught by kohzhen and wantheng)

best friend?

i experienced something as you do.
i wanted,
to be somebody's friend,
or his/her best friend.

i'm not sure about the reason behind,
do i admire him/her?
do i like him/her?

if there aren't reason,
why am i wanted to be his/her best friend?

its a...great experience,
trying for something that you couldn't get,
chaise for something like you dream.

everyday everytime everymoment,
only concern on person among people;
he/she is the one,
who shine among many.

i..
miss the day, seriously.







although the story end with nothing but experience,
i have no regret.

if it happens once more,
i will still, go for it.

do respect.

i am not brainless nor have no common sense,
i know what i am doing.
i couldn't help if you don't respect my way,
just do it yourself if i couldn't help you out.

sometimes we already knew what's going to happen,
but you expect me to do it still,
although they will response as what i have predicted.
you want me to do it,
because of you still believe there might be chance,
by wasting my money daily.
money is not actually a problem,
in fact, i hate doing something which waste my effort.
i am really fed up with those stuff.
its not our fault or anything,
everyone has different expects and different thinking,
we just...didn't think in how each other expects.
sorry i couldn't make it how you expect,
please, do it yourself if i couldn't help you sometimes.

raining deep night, with music.

the feeling is so damn right,
high quality soft music, soft instrument,
in a raining deep night.
got addicted, couldn't leave my laptop for bed.
songs could take my soul away,
i'm deep into it.

common life.

他是一个普通人
兴趣很普通
成绩很普通
交际很普通
感情很普通
生活很普通
他觉得自己活得很普通
也选择继续普通地过生活
很普通地上大学
很普通地毕业
很普通地找工作
很普通地拍拖
很普通地结婚
很普通地做爸爸
很普通地抚养孩子
很普通地看着孩子长大
很普通地退休
很普通地养老
很普通地抱孙子
很普通地生病
很普通地入院
很普通地离开

......你愿意像他一样

很普通地过他的一生…吗?
如果不愿意
那请你再多积极一些些
不要只是靠抄 assignment 过生活.

friends.

朋友到底算什么?
是否认识了几年就匆匆离开你人生的那种人?
不再见面
不再通话
我开始不明白
朋友的意义

小学时是如此
中学时是如此
大学时也是如此
是否求学时期每天和你混的就算朋友?
那在毕业后就立刻马上消失在你世界里的
又算什么?

我认识了很多朋友
却已好久好久没听过他们的声音
到底还算不算朋友?

回头想想
朋友对你的世界到底知道了什么?
朋友对你的内心到底了解了什么?

自从上了大学以后
说真的
我并不了解
我那所谓的朋友
我不知道他的世界是怎么样
我不知道他的内心藏了什么
甚至不知道他的全名怎么写
还算是
朋友吗?

自从上了大学以后
我才发现
在大学里好像都找不到真心朋友
来来去去都是在陪着我混日子
陪我上课
陪我吃饭
陪我逛街

毕业后
都各自回自己的家乡
都各自在不同的环境里继续生存
毕业后
到底还会不会再见?

我总觉得
这样挂名的朋友
挂得很牵强

到底 你对你所谓的朋友
了解有多深?

new generation

what do you think?

i think i'm just sucks

couldn't imagine i have been living under night for years

i wouldn't know how long else i have to be like this.

even myself are tiring with this.

but i couldn't control it.

sometimes for entertainment.

sometimes for study.

sometimes just purely don't want to sleep.

what.the.fuck is wrong with my lifestyle?

i wish to get back into the right lane.

i wish to.

its just a wish.

unless i'm out of electronic devices' world

i like that world.

at least i wouldn't lost myself.

computer sucks.internet sucks.facebook sucks.

its a fucked up world.

every baby started to stared at computer 24/7 since born.

wearing a fucking ugly spec since primary school.

learned to be punk since secondary school.

playing days and nights since college.

sometimes, i really wish we are still living without computers.

even though kites are boring, paper plane are lame.

could you?

who knows? if i am unhappy.

sometimes just feel like being a sad soul in a raining street.

no one bother.

no one cares.

i am just a passerby in everyone's life.

them seems unimportant to me, and so do me to them.

we are together, because we are just afraid of loneliness.

people come towards you, because they want some happiness from you.

they will leave, if they couldn't get any from you.

no one wants to pick up the trouble, even if troubler is his friend.

so, define..."friend".

could you?

dreams.

seriously, i started to get blur.

don't want to live aimless but i have no dream.

if i must have a dream,

my dream would be simple enough.

living peacefully, relaxing life.

i, don't actually have a dream, sadly.

sadly, i didn't aim that high.

sadly, i didn't force myself for anything.

sadly, i'm just living too peaceful.

never think of my future,

full with busyness, in a tension lifestyle.

i am not who i am or who i wanted to be.

i am depressingly sucks.

whenever people talk about dreams,

i stared on sky,

and see how bird flies.

missed up

what the...FUCK?

missed the departure of a camp for very first time

the feeling is so SUCKS...

i duno what happen

i duno is i really couldnt awake

or my fucking shit sony ericsson is hanging there

and cause the alarm function and receiving function to take no response

i have got a roommate sleeping besides me today

i wake up on 10.30am

and found that i have a really amazing phone.

with full of sms and miss calls without silenced,

me and my roommate still sleep for so warm

like the whole world is none of our business.

what the FUCK ?

after graduation

毕业了

各自有各自的生活

谁也不理谁

那当初那份热诚

是因为寂寞的作祟

还是被生活渐渐侵蚀不见了

you are nothing.

you may think the person sucks
you may say the person sucks
you may scold the person sucks
BUT you can't judge it.

you thought is what you thought.
you think is what you think.
you are not the one who you think you are,
when you are in front of others.

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making difference

其实 每个人都很普通
然而 一些自命非凡的人
却拼了命地 点缀他们的人生
拼了命想走出 普通人的规格
于是
我们的生活中
出现了
能者
与 疯子

a week after last post.

a month without production =)
anyhow had a great outing recently =DD
waking up in the morning sucks
movie sucks
expenses sucks
but i like it =)
macam revive de feel after being alone in INTI for year
have a great relaxing after those assignments and tests, and meeting too = ="

the future is an unknown,
because i cannot see anything due to it's too bright XD
peace ^^v