steping into an end.

漸漸地漸漸地，踏入尾聲，結局。

每件事都有個終點，而結束之後，自然會有新的目標，新的旅程。
兩年前，大家仍然青澀，誰也不認識誰。
我是不想，但時光堅決不肯。

you are not me.

yes.
you don't understand.

monthly report.

its months i did not blog,
as usual, i would not be here until i were down.

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i feel...lost.
my further study plan was not as smooth as i predict
too much of unexpected happen
causing of skipping the interview,
although i would definitely go for second round.
causing i were lost,
after the counselor told me something which i do not know previously.

 my future is still an unknown,
don't know where to go,
what to do.

i have been so afraid with the term, "unknown".
its the scariest part for me, which my life is unpredictable at the moment.
i don't know what will change and what would not.
same goes to what i will lost and what would not.
just anyhow,
it isn't smooth at the moment, as i tried hard.

fuuhhh.
missed up the interview,
i would never know its good or bad.
i feel like stay back at the same place,
just like when i was facing high school graduation.
maybe i would be free to discover myself for a better platform,
instead of staying in the same ground.
its also an "unknown",
but i like this kind of unknown,
it makes me feel challenging as the future is decide by me myself.

maybe,
its time for me to rest,
although i feel like fighting more.
maybe,
its a chance for me,
to discover a new world.
maybe,
perhaps,
everything happened would be positive.

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i hate something who has no manners,
talk to me politely before i treat you as a rubbish.
rubbish has nothing to be treasure of.
i do not keep rubbish in my mind,
and that's why you will see me filtering my friend list always,
because i would prefer to give up something,
which it caused full of negative thought in my mind,
keeping them would waste my mood.

filtering is something necessary for me,
you may judge me,
but i have my point,
i am living for myself,
not for someone else.

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done with famine,
done with my dream,
its tired but it worth,
i really do gain something precious from it,
which made me grow.
appreciate the people who promoted me,
else i will still stand on the same spot,
thinking of when i could done with my dream.

you would never know how potential you are,
unless you tried.

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uhhhhh
its time.
nor matter what will happen,
or how much "unknown" will still happen,
its time to pack up myself,
to challenge the "unknown",
and made it a controllable element.
ROAR!
spirit's up!
new target is set!
time to begin for a new journey!